so this touches on 2 things
growth and the duality of what we learn about growing old and how its usually looked at as a negative thing in our culture
whether it be loss of perceived beauty because of the break down of our physical form or even the press of time as we face our mortality
here i recognizing that i am lucky to be older and more developed and to be in touch with my formless self that goes beyond death
i used to feel like everything that wasnt great was a waste of my time before death. i used this for motivation to create a lot of my body of work
as i get older i realize this is still important but its good to flow with ease rather than constantly push its never good to think too much about your doom
also i don't believe i would be in such an amazing relationship if i was still my younger less aware self
to be a bit literal in the crowning theme i like to think her as my queen and i want to treat her so
if it pans out this is the person i would like to spend my life with